So about 6 months ago I started having this itching inside one ear that kept getting worse and nothing fixed it so I went to my doctor and he was like, “Huh. There’s a lump there. You need to see a dermatologist and maybe get a biopsy” and so I made an appointment and they were like, “We can see you in two months” and I panicked a little and they were like, “Okay, you can come in in two weeks and be seen by our PA” but then when I went in the PA was like, “Huh. Let me go get the doctor after all” and then he was like, “Well, it could be nothing but it also could be cancer and I’d rather have you see a specialist to look at it before I do anything” and so I made an appointment and they were like, “We can get you in NEXT YEAR” and then I may have cried a little because WHY ARE WE SO LOW ON DOCTORS? And I explained that I already have cancer and that I don’t want to wait until next year to find out if I have more cancer and she looked at my notes and was like, “I can fit you in with a resident doctor in a month” and yesterday I met with the resident and he was like, “Huh. That looks weird. Let me get the doctor” and then he came in and looked at it and was like, “Oh, that’s just eczema. You’re totally fine. You just need some meds.”
Anyway, all of that to say that I hadn’t realized how much this was weighing on me until I started crying in relief at the doctors office and I just want to say “sorry” that I haven’t been myself lately and that I’ve been a little absent from everything but I guess it was affecting me more than I thought.
SO, YAY FOR NOT HAVING ANOTHER KIND OF CANCER! That’s a weird thing to celebrate but I’m doing it anyway.